New Day

So, I had the entire day off from work.  It was just Em and I today.

First we started the day with breakfast....well Em had breakfast!  Then we headed to Ikea to look around.  Emry got some new containers for her toys and some chalk (lots of it).

Our next step is to buy some paint for her room...in which she chose hot pink.  Sometimes I wonder where this real girly side came from.   Really?  Hot pink?  BUT on that note, I'm going to paint the bottom half of one wall with blackboard paint!  I'm excited.

We then met our friend James for lunch, where Emry decided she wanted to run around instead of sitting down and eating..grrrrr!

....Time seemed to drag by after we got home at around 1230... I was just waiting for 4:30 to come along so Emry could go to her first art class!  SHE LOVED IT!  She walked right in, turned around and said BYE MAMA!  :)  Gosh she's getting to be so big :(  Turns out that Emry is very artisitc and the teachers were taken back by her coordination with a paint brush, go EM!

I'm so proud of my babe, and I can't wait for her to do more amazing paintings.  I love you Emry.

The things people don't see...

When people look at me they might not think I'm a mom, a college graduate, fun, pretty, etc... but they sure as hell don't know what I hold inside.  My friends [and some who aren't friends] know I'm pretty blunt...also maybe a little intimidating.  But they also know that I'm a genuinely caring person who would do anything for someone I thought needed help - especially family and friends.

I've been through a lot the past few years and I always say it's made me stronger.  It has.  The only thing I ask from people is not to LIE to me, and don't blame me for your mistakes.  This is probably going to turn into a rant but I'm not a very happy person right now.. and that doesn't happen very often.

For the past 4 weeks I've worked very hard on potty training Emry (accomplished), working, fighting with Emry on bedtime, looking at grad programs...etc.  I transport Emry to and from daycare, I feed her, I play with her ALL the time and I make it a point to go out and do something fun with her.  BUT Emry is also suppose to see her father...which she does once every-other week....but this is suppose to be every week and every other weekend ordeal - yes, we have a parenting plan.  I always said that he could choose not to see her and leave us alone but he chose to see Emry.... Emry deserves a father and she does love her father, in which I'm thankful.

BUT, for the past 4 weeks he has lied to me!  He has lied to me about working graveyard on the weekends.  I'm thankful that I get the extra time with Emry but when I do have an opportunity to go out and do something but am not able to because "I THINK" he's a work...it really pisses me off.  Considering the fact I find out third party pisses me off more.  WHY?  Why lie to me?  If you don't want to see your kid, then don't!  Just say it.  If you rather go to a party, just say it.  It's better than lying!

Another thing, Father's Day is for dads.  Yes, Dads - not moms.  I could understand if you are working, but if you are choosing to PLAY IN A SOFTBALL TOURNY instead it's absolutely ridiculous!  And then when you say "It's not like a 2 year old can make me breakfast" it makes me "want" to punch you.  It the simple fact that it's a FULL day you can spend with YOUR child.

In the long run, this situation does not surprise me and that's the sad part.  Time after time I tell myself things are improving, but I'm just lying to myself.  I should never think it will get better, some people will remain childish their entire lives and never put their priorities first.

When you have a child, they are your number one priority.  They are not toys to show off and they sure as hell don't deserve to be avoided.  I'm tired of putting up with this crap..I feel as it will never end.

Thats it, thanks for reading.  :)

questioning a relationship

Being single, you realize so many things.  Some good and some bad.  Me, myself have found myself the last couple years...wow that is shocking to think about.  I have come to realize that I do not NEED someone in my life and when that time is suppose to happen, it will.  I do not push it, I do not look for it... I focus on my daughter and I.

Most of my friends are dating or are married.  I hear so many things, drama..issues.. call it what you want.  This is something I do not miss, nor do I want.  I realize that relationships have their normal bickerments but TRUST is a must.  If you do not trust who you are with, it will never work out.  EVER.  I wish some of my friensd would figure this out.  How is it possible to love someone if you do not trust them?  (it's not).

For friendships, sometimes your friends let you down.  More than likely often, but you still love them.  Sometimes you tell them and sometimes you don't - depends on the situation.  Sometimes they apologize and sometimes they don't.  Maybe they are just flakes...

Anyone else have any thoughts?

A friend who moved away

I talked to a friend last week, more specifically a best friend.  Her and I have similar stories and it's always great to catch up.  Unfortunately, we do not get to see each other often [rarely] but we keep in tough through email and Facebook.  Even though our homes are only eight hours apart, our schedules make it nearly impossible to fly to one another.. or drive. 

Sadly for her, she meets new people on a regular basis [being in the military] and people leave her life monthly.  Some get stationed somewhere else and some go on deployment.  She mentioned that it's hard to have "good" friends when they are always leaving [meaning long time friends] or that you know your time together is limited.  My response to her was that, "they will always be good friends!  Look at you and I, we're best friends and we live 8 hours a part and maybe see each other twice a year."  She agreed, just that she wishes she saw Emry and I more [something I wish as well!]  Our babes would be best friends too! 

The point is that we all have friends who move away or people in our lives who move on with their own lives.  It's part of life!  If you have a friend who moves away, it takes time and effort to make that friendship last.  No matter how long you go without talking, you should be able to pick up where you left off. 

That's what I love about my friends - we all understand that we live busy lives but that we support each other 100% in all the choices we make [under reasonable circumstances of course ;)]. 

For example, I saw a friend from high school for the first time since 2005 last week.  It was great.  It was like no time had passed by - we picked up where we left off.  To me, that's how you know you have a good friend.

Friends are a necessity of life. 

Entertainment

Oh, just some entertaining conversations today...


"Where's that dirty little whore?"

"They are like mini orgasms!"

"I wish I had the power of being invisiable so I could go to the mens locker room and sneak a peak."

"I have a butt, I totally have a butt."

"Whenever we talk about boobs ------> look where my hands are."

far in advance I know but I o-well.

I'm going to be Ariel for Halloween.  YES!

...c'mon parents

Being a server, you deal with a variety of people..old and young (real old and real young).

I'm going to focus on the young at the time being, maybe more or so their parents.  PARENTS - why do you think it's acceptable for your child to make a complete mess of the surrounding area [not just the top of your table]?!  OR wipe condiments on the table without cleaning it up?  Seriously, the people serving you are trying help you out and let you enjoy an outing with your family - it's a slap in the face in the end!

I wish I would have taken a picture of the mess I had to clean up yesterday.  Don't get me wrong, I love serving - I really do.  BUT I do not like being a janitor.  I had fruit, crackers, meat, and chips all over the place..and when I say ALL over I mean even at the surrounding tables where they were not eating.  C'mon people!  It just makes me wonder what the inside of their house looks like!

Okay enough with the venting...

Now for the older people.  You guys' make our day at times.  It's so nice to see people come in who are realistic and fun.  I had a few regulars come in yesterday who I had not seen in months!  It was a wonderful surprise.  They asked about Emry and what I have been doing and I asked about their grandchildren and what they have been up to...etc. etc.

 It's funny how we can all make a difference in someones day, and it's something we should try to do daily.  It could simply just be saying hello and smiling or helping an elderly woman bring the groceries to her car... Some people need that positive energy/support in their lives!

Even though it's a little blurry, I though I'd share this photo of my babe.  She looks so old...purse and everything yesterday [her doing].  ENJOY!